Weird huh?
I'm in Bangalore...came here for a funeral, stayed to interview for a job, perhaps plan a future.
Suddenly, I'm not sure if this is where I want to be. The cocoon that familiar surroundings and people encased me in these last 2 years seems hard to let go off. The future that seemed reachable just yesterday seems just that far away again. The sacrifices and changes called for seem just .... not fair somehow.
One spends a lifetime being the person one is today and yet, there's always something lacking. Some will make that change, some will say it's just something to get used to. Who am I? The first person or the second?
The job I just *might* get tomorrow, the fact I just *might* be moving here in 2 weeks somehow doesn't hold that excitement for me anymore.
Why do decisions have to be made? Why do people make decisions without considering how it makes someone else feel?
If I'm rambling, it's probably cause it's 1 am here in Bangalore and I'm sitting under my mango tree here on the terrace of our house (stealing my neighbor's wi-fi connection) and debating what I need to do and generally being all over the place with my feelings.
Wasn't growing up supposed to make everything feel better?
Suddenly, I'm not sure if this is where I want to be. The cocoon that familiar surroundings and people encased me in these last 2 years seems hard to let go off. The future that seemed reachable just yesterday seems just that far away again. The sacrifices and changes called for seem just .... not fair somehow.
One spends a lifetime being the person one is today and yet, there's always something lacking. Some will make that change, some will say it's just something to get used to. Who am I? The first person or the second?
The job I just *might* get tomorrow, the fact I just *might* be moving here in 2 weeks somehow doesn't hold that excitement for me anymore.
Why do decisions have to be made? Why do people make decisions without considering how it makes someone else feel?
If I'm rambling, it's probably cause it's 1 am here in Bangalore and I'm sitting under my mango tree here on the terrace of our house (stealing my neighbor's wi-fi connection) and debating what I need to do and generally being all over the place with my feelings.
Wasn't growing up supposed to make everything feel better?
posted by Vikster @ 12:29 PM
25 Comments:
At 1:00 PM,
Anonymous said…
No it wasn't. Ask a 100 people if they could turn back time and be a child again, would they do it.
Let me know how many said yes.
At 11:34 PM,
Ipshi said…
Just chanced upon ur blog and really loved ur style of writing... well dont really know any other style of urz but anyway... hav been going thru ur previous blog postings while i work and have thoroughly enjoyed myself. I am not so glad about the fact that u mite b moving away from Bombay tho... wud've liked to touch base with u at the bandra barista some time... ah well.. now ull get to hav the real "kaapi" and not some ostentatious brrrrrrrrrista brrr something or the other eh?
At 4:34 AM,
Anonymous said…
I salute your determination.
You set yourself a six month deadline July last and God knows you seem to be moving out of Mumbai pretty much on schedule.
Whatever you decide here's wishing you the best
At 4:53 AM,
Anonymous said…
All the best Vikster. Bangalore can be fun.
At 6:03 PM,
Anonymous said…
Bangalore will be fun with me around there in May, ;) hehe
But I know how hard it feels, I have just been moving out of bangalore on and often, and its always hard till you get used to the new place..
-Sharath.
At 3:29 PM,
Anonymous said…
Son you are a Bandra boy
And thats the way to stay.
Happy to be a Bandra boy
Until your dyin day :-(
At 1:28 PM,
Anonymous said…
When we grow up, our problems do as well.
So much in life is about chance. A chance encounter with someone at the wrong time or the right time; a brush with death that leaves you unscathed while the scythe captures another. G-d has plans for all of us, and the best we can do is try to steer this crazy car towards the right side of the road -- slowing down or stopping, that is beyond us....
IGC
At 9:50 PM,
Anonymous said…
Hey vickster...
though avid readers seem to link your moving to blr with the july 7th thng,i wouldnt be too sure about the odds of that...however, i must say...you will miss mumbai(duh!!??)
Lets just hope u take a liking to blr...[:)], and are able to stay off beeer!!!lolol
Cheers!
Rishi
At 1:25 PM,
Anonymous said…
hi vik,
Read a couple of your blogs as i jut got free after my work.... don feel like goin home but to continue reading .. n thats what iam gonna do.. but need to tell you this .. so far the blogs that i've read are good.. n ya WELOCME TO BANGALORE.... im sure you wont miss mumbai..
Best regards
Vasanth
At 2:14 AM,
Unknown said…
Hey Viks,
Life's like that! Just when you thought you figured out what you want in life it gives a new twist!!!
Bangalore is not a bad place at all.Believe me you will enjoy your life..
I am happy for you and you will not Miss Bombay as much once you start your work there.
Atleat you will have a life!!. Bombay is just getting crowded day by day..
Me too am planning to move out of Bombay.. Lets give the city a breather .. it needs space!!! :)
Meenakshi
At 8:51 AM,
Anonymous said…
hey viks
I have been a regular reader of ur blog. Must say that ur blog is really good. Also i am happy your coming to blore.. Welcome to Bangalore :)
-shanky
At 10:55 PM,
Unknown said…
Do I see guys drooling over you from a distance already ?:P
At 7:17 AM,
Desi in DC said…
lived in and loved both cities. cheers and good luck!
At 6:51 AM,
Bhaumik said…
hey..
just came across ur blog and i must say that i really enjoy ur style of writing...
At 6:03 AM,
Gia Fernandes said…
Don't do it. Don't make the mistake of leaving Bombay. I speak from experience. Take a break, go on a holiday and come back.
At 12:57 PM,
Anonymous said…
now is as good a time to give blore a shot as any. the cocoon of familiarity is a thing of the past in blore, even for a hard core blore girl like me. the know-85%-of-the-ppl-at-any-given-bar-at-any-given-point is no longer true at all, and while that is a thing to lament a bit nostaligically, it is hardly a bad thing to have happened to this (still) wonderful city. my bangalore is growing and accepting at an amazing rate and it gets more interesting each time i return home from new york. it has always been a cool and liberal place to live in, and with the new diversity that gets added to it everyday, i dont see any reason not to be a part of it. i'm considering moving back in a year... if i can afford it. if i do, and if you decide to stay on, i'll meet you there at the "it" club/bar at that time... good luck! :)
At 1:51 PM,
Bombay Girl said…
Give it a chance.You can always come back home if it doesn't work for you.Goodluck.
At 11:43 PM,
Anonymous said…
what happened to the funny stuff?
At 9:30 AM,
Anonymous said…
So have you left " Pinstrorm" & you won't be giving the Mahaquizzer from Mumbai this year (2007)
At 11:47 AM,
Anonymous said…
oh,..
wheren't you thinking about something similar going away from Boston? Where you making decisions without considering how it makes someone else feel, then? Isn't it really about what you feel right now?
At 1:27 AM,
Pri said…
Bangalore's great. It really is. Soupie [my best friend] and i were discussing how you might be moving to Bangalore and how we should move back too. By the by Vik we both have virtual crushes on u. We're both female and straight for the record.
At 3:20 PM,
Anonymous said…
I second that!
As crazy as it sounds :)
You make me smile like no straight boy ever has.
Keep blogging will you!
At 10:36 AM,
Anonymous said…
you are moving away?? aww, and i had such hopes of meeting you. been reading your blog for a loooong time now.
i dont like banglore - too boring. every weekend one seems to end up at mg road only. in mumbai we are so spoilt for choice.
but good luck whatever you do. and dont stop blogging!
At 5:51 AM,
Unknown said…
come on, already. been here a month, done a lot, and still nothing new on the blog..
wakey, wakey!!
:)
At 11:31 AM,
Anonymous said…
So,where are you?
Can you now be found at I *heart* Bengaluru?
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